Wishes..

I wish his annoyance would melt, wish his anger would leave him, wish he'd realize that even I don't like his arrogance.. When he snaps at me for something, I feel sad. But I remain silent and listen. Because most of the times than not, he proves to me from his actions and words and silence that he needs a listener. Only a listener. He doesn't even want the listener to ask anything. I know that because when I ask him to repeat what I haven't heard, he snaps again. So, a lot of times, a lot of things remain un-understood. Because I stop asking him to repeat thinking he'll be angry. He whispers on phone. Talks as if I'm right next to him in a silent room. But, my surroundings are not very quiet. But, I feel that he might get angry if I ask him to be louder. So, I press the phone hard to my ear. It hurts. But.. I can't help it. I wish he were more empathetic. I wish that he'd be a little less biased towards himself. I wish he'd understand me more. I wish he'd understand how sensitive I am..

And then he tells me that I shouldn't be scared of him..