A birthday

Its my ex's birthday today. My first ex. I don't miss him. But for some reason, he has been on my mind since last evening. And the bad part is that I have been at my irritated worst since I woke up today. Maybe because it wasn't a good way to part.

I'm keeping away from my dear friends as much as I can, or else I might pounce on them for no fault of theirs. Aah.. a few more hours for this phase to pass. I hope. For now, there have been two victims. One close buddy, whom I look forward to talk to each day.. and my mother who is almost always my only source of pure happiness. She is the reason for all the loud laughter that echoes around my house at regular intervals (I'm the source of laughter). But, I've been literally shooing her and everyone else away from me today.

Just for today.

Celebration Time

Am done with my seminars. And it was a success :) Its been exactly one week and I have been celebrating that for all this time. I have been writing, planning, and leaving everything I do halfway. There are half a dozen half done drafts in my blog waiting for completion and posting. There was a poem pending to be written which would be a maximum of 12 lines long because I didn't want it to be too detailed, of which I already had 4 lines in mind. I started writing the poem 2 days back and while doing it, the subject changed, the story changed and I started writing a completely different poem altogether. And its 28 lines so far. A minimum of 8 more lines are needed to complete it with the least of details. Its like a story told in the shortest time :)

Oh yes.. about the jerk - the once upon a time friend whom I had cut all contact with and who is trying to rebuild that friendship. I have to say about him! About 5 days after that 6 line conversation I had, he buzzed me on my messenger again. This time, we spoke for about 2 hours. It was awkwardly nice and healthy.. for a change! Awkward because we were talking so much after nearly 2 years and nice because.. well, because he had kept his irritating sarcasm locked far away while talking to me. I hated to like it. Then he had to leave from his workplace and thankfully he didn't have a net connection at home so we could only talk that much. New phone numbers were exchanged and he SMSed a few times. I did not reply because I knew that his sarcasm and old colours would soon be shown.

We met online again after 3 days. I felt a rush of spite run through me the moment he buzzed me on my messenger and I knew that this was going to be the day I was going to cut off once again. Just as expected, his sarcasm and hateful attitude was back by late afternoon. And I spat out words of hatred, about how unhealthy it has always been for me to talk to him, the repulsive aura that surrounded him. I was at my shrewd best. And I was loving it. Because I so so hate him.
So.. I feel satisfied finally. Satisfied that I could finally speak out uncensored words of hatred to the man I hated most on earth.

Aaaahhhh.. I feel so much at peace..

I have another reason for celebration. How about some chocolates? :D

Not sulking

There's a lot on my mind these days. I bounced back beautifully from my low phase and was in a great rockstar mood for about 6 consecutive days. That is till I announced it. A few minutes after the public announcement I made through a group mail, life was normal again- spiced with anger, irritation and all the usual stuff. No regrets. I'm too busy to get any emotion elaborately expressed.

Busy? Good for me. Busy preparing for some presentations coming up early this week. Oooh.. thinking of the presentations makes me feel so useless. I have er.. ok let me give myself some deadline.. I have 6 hours.. yeah 360 minutes to complete my work. Then I have to mail it to my guide, he should read it, approve it, make changes or whatever and send it back to me.. eep.. will have to hear his feminine voice over the phone to find out what changes he has made. Then go take prints and then make a power point presentation. All because of these vacations. Uh.. am I cursing vacations? (hush hush.. else eggs land right on my head SPLAT!!)

So there's a lot on my mind these days. But that doesn't mean I suddenly talk niceeeely to someone I have been very busy hating for two whole years?! hmmph!! I call him a 'jerk' because he is one. A chat friend.. uh ex-friend hehe.. I broke the friendship because of some very good valid reasons. I found him so hateful that I didn't even want to keep him in my ignore list. It was a hatred overflowing phase for me. Somehow, he managed to buzz me on one of those 6 lovely days after my low phase.. and.. I ended up being so sweet to him eek.. *slap**slap* to me. Thankfully I was very busy and kept the conversation very short. WILL keep in mind not to talk to him again. I'm so unpredictable. Will keep you all updated.

Oh!!! 355 minutes...

Happy birthday Aashi.. :-*

Its Ash's Birthday.. ahem.. Aishwarya Rai.. my favourite face.. the best face I've ever seen. In fact I think she looks divine! Impossible not to dedicate a post to her today :) I can't stop admiring her beauty. Been an ardent admirer since 1994, that's ever since she won the Miss World crown. And I've been a faithful fan. Got loads of pics of her, thanks to my brother.. once upon a time he used to be her fan. Somehow, from the opinions of people around me, it seems that the I-hate- Aishwarya list is growing by the day.. yeah my brother included! I don't understand why. Oh, maybe because she crossed 30 and is still rocking? Bah! Jealous lot! Anyway.. I'm here to give her my wishes.. very late, but better than never :)
Happy Birthday, my dear Aashi... :-* muuuaaahhhhh!!!

...my net is so damned slow.. I got a lovely lovely pic of Ash and its just not uploading; so u know the pic that you're seeing up there came there after a lot of effort.. uh.. I mean waiting... zzzzzz...